By Michelle Lemme
Approaching the one year anniversary of my “descent into hell”; and where am I today? I am pleased to say that I am healthy and, for the most part, happy. I’ve learned enough to mostly manage (live with) my troublesome anxiety and obsessive/compulsive behaviors. Frankly I can’t really wrap my head around how my “OCD behaviors” are linked to my depression, having said that, I do find that doing the behavior is soothing, I guess because the act of performing certain behaviors consumes all of my focus and attention, which is sometimes a huge relief. My compulsive cleaning is under control (most of the time), but, I simply cannot leave my face alone, touching, picking and making a mess of my skin – who wouldn’t pick at their face if they were always peering into a 15X magnifying mirror!! Obviously, I still struggle and know that I still have things to work on, which is why I continue to see my therapist.
I continue to struggle with the whole “not working” thing, which I was thrust into when I got sick. If I am honest, I know that I have allowed myself to believe that my “value” is and [...] continue the story